My Dad

I haven't mentioned much before about what my dad is going through on this blog.  I just have not known how to write about it or even process all that I have been feeling.  But about 8 or 9 months ago my dad found out he had lung cancer.  He started chemo almost immediately.  After the chemo he started radiation.  And then he got some not great results that it had spread a bit more.  He was suppose to do another round of chemo but he fell and broke his hip and had to delay chemo for hip surgery.  After the surgery he finally started the next round of chemo a few weeks ago.  This type of chemo was in pill form.  He had some really bad side effects from the meds which included ulcers in his mouth so he had to stop with that treatment.  One week and one day ago he went in to his oncologist to see what his options were.  Basically the lung cancer is now believed to be in his liver and in his bone marrow.  He could attempt chemo again but at this point the cancer is very wide spread and with the bad side effects it wouldn't be very helpful.  So he elected no more chemo.  I went to my dad's house on Friday and he was getting hospice at home set up for him.  It's now been one week and one day since we found out he didn't have much time left on earth with us.  It's so much to take in and process for our family.  So... I just want to say to my dad - I love you.  I am the person I am today because of you.